So, I was rummaging through some old documents today and came across a letter I wrote to my future husband (I believe I wrote this my senior year in Highschool). I debated for a couple of days, whether or not to post this because it is a bit personal...but figured it might be a bit of an encouragement to friends and such around this Valentines Day season. Anyways, enjoy!
Dear you,
Despite the fact that your face is still unknown I want you to know that I love and respect you deeply. I always have and I always will.
I will be your biggest cheerleader with every single dream you have. When times are good, I will take sheer pride and absolute joy in your success and triumphs. However, when times are bad, I’ll still be right by your side. You better believe I’m always going to be your number one fan – small failures won’t change that. If you need a helper, I’m on it in 3.2 seconds, Cap’n! If you need comforting, I’ll lovingly wrap my arms around you and trace your cheeks with kisses. If you need me to shut up, sit down and stop tracing your cheeks with kisses…I suppose I can do that too. But, you better ask nicely Mr.
I’ll be your best friend, your companion, your partner in crime. I’ll be the girl you can take home to your momma, the girl who can hold her own with you and the guys, but the girl who will be alllll yours when you’re feeling a tad selfish. I’m the kinda girl who likes to wear sweat-pants, snuggle up next to you on the couch and have a conversation about Legos. However, I’m also the kind of girl who likes to slip into a sexy little dress, sprits on a little vanilla smelling perfume and be taken out dancing. Oh gosh, I hope you like dancing.
As for you, I think about you a lot. I find myself thinking about how you might be chosing to live your life. How do you spend your free afternoons? Do people respect you? Are you a man of your word? Even though we may not yet know one another, it matters to me how you're living your life now. Because, how your living your life currently, determines the kind of man you’re turning into and the kind of man I'll be married to for the rest of my life.
I don’t want to spend too much time elaborating, but just know that I hold you in such a high regard. I’m saving a lot of things for you- not simply because it’s my religion, not because I’m a goodie-two-shoes, not because I haven’t had a plethora of opportunities…but because I deeply respect you and my future family. I can only imagine you’d want the absolute best from me and I want to be able to give the best to you…now respect me enough to do the same. Be the man worthy to hold my heart- I’m absolutely worth it, I promise you.
I can forgive whatever mistakes you have made in the past- I've made plenty myself. I’m not worried about what happened or what you’ve done- but, what I am interested in is your future, starting right now. Be my leader, guard my heart, protect me...I believe in you and I simply cannot wait to meet you.
Love,
Me